Monday, May 30, 2011

124|365 looking back and moving on joy

“To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven”
-Ecclesiastes 3:1

It is hard to express in words my feelings about leaving this home in the country. This home I designed for my family and built up from the dirt on which it stands. The home I always dreamed of. It is difficult because I have so many conflicting feelings. I feel sad to leave, but happy to move on. I feel blessed to have had the experience of living here among the trees and ponds and cattle. We raised little ducklings and set them free. We have “moo-ed” at the baby cows and watched tall beautiful birds go fishing in our ponds. We were visited by turtles. The tree out back held a swing that my boys used to swing in as babies. The pond is full of fish that we have caught and let go. We have celebrated numerous birthdays, Independence Days, and Christmases. Kyle took his first steps in this house and the boys had their first camping adventure here. We had a toddler and a newborn when we moved in and now we are leaving with two boys and a baby girl. These will be cherished memories and I am so grateful for the unique experiences we have had because we have lived here. This home will always hold a special place in our hearts and minds.

Living here has taught me so much about myself and life. I have learned that my marriage is strong. Strong enough to survive the construction process and I am proud of this testament to our relationship, not to mention our own blood, sweat and tears. I have learned that true friends don’t mind a taking a long country drive to see you. I have learned that I can accomplish great things that I once thought were out of reach. I have learned that living in the country does not magically give you more time for the simple things. I have learned that when you are running late and on a country road, you will, without fail, get stuck driving behind farmer john on his tractor. I have learned that there is a season for everything, and sadly, right now is not the season for us to live in the country.

I am excited about moving closer to friends, kids’ activities, doctors, restaurants and shopping. I am excited about living in a neighborhood where we can go Trick or Treating. I am excited that when we decorate the house for Christmas, others will see it. I am excited to throw more parties and not worry that no one will come because we live so far away. I am excited to make new friends and neighbors. I am excited to volunteer in a way that I have been unable to due to my lack of proximity. I am excited to have reliable internet access! I am excited that Cody will have more time to spend with me and the boys and less time commuting and maintaining acreage.

Since I was very young, I have always wanted to design and build my own house. I think this is something I had to do. Had I not had this experience, I don’t know that I would be content living in another home. I think the most important thing I have learned is that time with my family and friends is more important than living in my dream house.

Whether the five of us were in the 800 square-foot, 2 bedroom apartment while building, or in a 5000 square foot house on 82 acres, we just want to be together. This home holds many cherished memories that we will take with us.

Here’s to a new chapter in our lives!
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